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Hello Mama,

i’m so glad you found me, but i am so sorry you’re here.

I felt so utterly alone in the days and weeks after my daughter Elke died.

Elke was stillborn at 36 weeks on 7th November 2019.

Her movements decreased over a few days, and by the time I went to hospital we were given the devastating news, “I’m sorry, there is no heartbeat. Your baby has died.”

She was completely perfect. We have been given no medical reason for her death. (I’ve learnt this is common for late term stillbirths).

I searched the internet for other stories to try to make sense of what had happened to me.

I was furious at the stigma attached to stillbirth and infant loss.

I was so frustrated that people just didn’t know what to say or do.

So I started writing and sharing some of my thoughts, and I found a community of women who felt the same way.

Honestly Emma is a platform for me to share all of the things that have been helpful in my journey through loss. I will share the books, podcasts and other resources that have been a lifeline for me.

I will also share my writing, in the hope that sharing my heart, will help others too.

Thank you for finding me.

I hope you find what you need to help heal your heart just a little bit more.

 
Today is Say Their Name Day. It’s not just a day, it’s a movement. A movement to break the taboo. If you know someone who has lost a baby or a child, message them today with their child’s name ❤️ I can’t tell you how much
She would have started preschool this week. It’s actually hard to imagine. All of the what ifs and should have beens. What life would have been like if she stayed. I’m not going to lie, there are times when I get so angry that we ar
This needs a permanent spot on the ‘gram. Mums heading out for a surf 🏄🏻‍♀️ Shredding with @k_andkids @shelleycraftofficial Only took until the last day of the holiday to get us out there! The best hour of the whole summer holiday ?
9 months. Iggy - our happy, chubby littlest babe. Loves food, loves his siblings, is insanely ticklish. He hates being on his tummy, isn’t close to crawling, and prefers to have someone in sight at all times! He loves people, smiling at eve
13 years with you by my side 💍 Holding and supporting me every step of the way. No one else I could do this with ❤️ Life is a bit different these days. I stayed home with the baby and the puppy, while you took the kids to dinner 😆 You are my eve
Merry Christmas from our crew to yours 🎄 I hope you have a gentle Christmas, I know so many hearts are tender at this time of year. This is our 4th Xmas without Elke, our first with Iggy, and it is the first time I have felt even slightly festive
RIP Rocco 💔🐾😭 12 incredible years with this boy by our side. It’s hard to put into words how much he means to us. Animal lovers will know that your pet truly is one of the family. We considered Rocco our eldest child. If anyone asked Mia h
I will never move on. I will never be healed. It will never be ok. It will never be better. No matter how much time will pass there will always be a crack in my heart. Yes I can smile again. Yes I can be around people and talk the small stu
🎈She would be 3 🎈 Happy birthday Elke Pixie. It is hard to believe it has been 3 years. In many ways, it still feels like yesterday. I still remember every minute of the day we said hello and goodbye. 7.11.2019 I miss you every day baby girl. Tod

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Writing has been such a huge part of my healing. I have journaled for hours just for me, I have shared longer form entries with a few close people in my life, and I have shared some of my words on Instagram.

I needed Elke to be shared with the world. I needed people to understand she existed. She is our 4th child. She is very much a part of our life. Our children speak of her daily, and not a day goes by without her in my thoughts.

I have shared some of my words on Instagram. Please jump over and connect with me as I share my journey and my heart.

I hope it makes you feel less alone. Or if you are a support person, you gain a deeper understanding of how to support the bereaved parents in your life.